I have officially dropped out of university now.

It was for the best-- but I can't help but feel kind of adrift right now. The university I was at (Leicester DeMontfort) wasn't the best for me. I wasn't being pushed. I allowed myself to become complacent, to make easy choices and allow myself to simply be shit. I am better than I have been, and I need to show that to the world. I need to further myself, right now, else life isn't worth living, and I, for one, want to live.

So I'm going to go about doing things better. I'm going to live a bit more. I'm fully intending to write a list of betterment, something I can stick to, something I can thoroughly achieve, and then... well, we'll see how that treats me. I want to be a better person, I want to be brilliant, but hey. That's going to take some work.

Not that I'm intending this journal to be a downer--! No, really, this was the best decision I could make, but it's that feeling now of not being tethered to anything, not having that academic responsibility, that's really blowing my mind and making me worried.

I'll be fine.

Hopefully.